Letting it out :O

I just sometimes have a hard time grasping the fact on how can some people simply cannot stick to their words and how they change their mind to justify that act which has to do little with their life and has more affect on the lives of other people with much higher intensity. I get so mad and so angry and so upset. I find myself so helpless and so lost. I don't know what i can do to help myself not to be bothered by these or what could be done to help such people to make them realize the importace of adhering to own words.

We are just too used to and comfortable having secular thoughts and ideas and living a life of pretence. When i look at my own self and my own family i see and find ourselves to have fallen victim of the norms and culture in the soceity (which has more to do with societal values & prestige and how people perceive it) and often we pay attention or even care to think about what is right to be done from the point of sharia; that is deciding on what would help us in our deen, dunya and in the akhira. We are struggling with our own selves trying to fit in with everyone and trying to be accepted in this world in the sight of others for few moments of recognition and thats all we think about. All we think about is how to live today in this world. How can i be popular among others? How can I earn some respect? How can i earn some praise ? Thats all? Is that all we should care about when we have been gifted with the best gift in creation? What about the akal and free will? Is that how we are to misuse our intelligence and free will just thinking of our few days in this world? How could we be so naive? How could we think of the benefit in this dunya and not about our benefit for the much longer life in the hereafter awaiting for us? Why are we so immeresed? How come we do not think about the Creator who controls everything and all thats in creation? Shouldn't we rather focus our attention on things that pleases the Creator? He is the Creator and the owner of all the creation that ever did, does and will exist in this universe - so if we earn the pleasure of the Creator we are sure to own the creation as well. Its like if you have the king, you own all the treasures he owns as well. But if its only his treasures where you have interest - no matter how much you take (which might seem enough to you), the king isn't yours and you looked at more of a short-term goal. This analogy was actually given in a lecture by Shyakh Husain Abdul Sattar and now when I think of all these, everything just falls into places so well. How come we do not think that way? We are no longer concerned about our situation on the Day of Judgement - we are more worried about our comfort and outlook as it would appear in front of the people around us. Its time we straighten our priorities so we don't prolong our sufferings on that day. I try to be of those who does everything for the sake of Allah(swt); i try and i try. But my efforts fall short and its not easy as it all boils down to who i am - HUMAN. A human who's weak in setting her priorities . I fall and i drown being bombarded with all thats around me. Its hard and its sad... I'm not complaining. However, i haven't given up hope and i will not let that happen for I know what Allah (swt) says, "Verily with hardship comes ease; and verily with hardship comes ease." So, i'll hang in there and be patient and inshaAllah i'll get strong enough to deal with such issues with more wisdom...

I'm sorry! I wasn't trying to sound pathetic by writing about my frustrations. But I thought its important that we understand very clearly that no matter how much we are trying to please the people around us - as long as we compromise our values and our own priroties, putting everything else in our to do list and serving Him to be the last thing in our agenda provided our time and energy permits - will lead us to be owned by this dunya and not owning it. We will fail to be good in the sight of others. How can we be good to others when we are not sincere to our relationship with the Lord? Isn't everything that we own is from His niyaama? So, don't we need to think and set priorities thanking Him for all that we have and in all that we do? But thats another thing if we are not sure of our priorities, and i don't want to get into that right now.

We are human and for each and every action of ours we have to answer to our Lord - are we prepared for that? We do not know when we would face death. Lets say we face death today - are we ready to stand in front of Him? This is a reminder to my ownself... that every second thats passing, its taking me closer to death. I should be happy as I'm drawing closer to the time to meet Him right? But am i truly? Am i prepared to face Allah (swt)? Am i truly longing to meet Him? Or i'm scared and too embarassed to face Him with the burden of my sins? Forgive me yaAllah and have mercy on me; help me be of those who are looking forward to meet you on that day and help me be of those who doesn't earn your wrath... Ameen.